Finding myself

Here I am, at the age of 30, back to my hometown and trying to find myself.   Not much has changed really except myself.   It's either I go back to who I was when I was back here or better yet be someone better.   Be someone applying values that I have gained and living a more decent life.  I am lost. I don't really know yet what to do.   I pray that God will assist me in this life I have.  I am still lost but I hope I get the life that I want.