TESTING

 home stresses main reason why i just want to fly and have one source of stress nowadays, work has been my stress reliever work has been a source of one focus it would be good for me if i want to further grow my corporate life...  but the problem with home stresses is it requires and eats up your time so need to figure out how to stay calm and maintain and focus on the immediate problems at hand

Is it me.. am i just tired? I realize that I start to become like this (negative/emo) when I'm tired.    So I guess I need to rest and hope that tomorrow will be good.

Here I am, at the age of 30, back to my hometown and trying to find myself.   Not much has changed really except myself.   It's either I go back to who I was when I was back here or better yet be someone better.   Be someone applying values that I have gained and living a more decent life.  I am lost. I don't really know yet what to do.   I pray that God will assist me in this life I have.  I am still lost but I hope I get the life that I want.     

1. Living independently; everything at my own pace 2. I am free to do any activities without worries of having problems with comuting or not going to where I have to go. 3. I am definitely very much paid more compared to back home. If I decide to stay and save up oney, i can definitely save up more money and can buy more things. 4. Security and safety is no issue. I can freely walk at anytime anywhere, een bringing out my phone and SMS without any worries of getting stolen. 5. As I am all alone, no one nags me 6. Not worrying about anything else

My mood pretty much shifts from wanting to go back home to not wanting to go back home.  I've already thought of listing the reasons down earlier so I can cross and compare and help me decide what I would do in life. - I miss my family; when I look at our pictures, fun times, travels, just being at home and chatting with parents.  Fooling around with siblings.  It does rarely get sad.. When i'm down, all i need to do is that i'm home and my loved ones are all there - I miss my friends: different groups and different sets; it does make me feel a bit more relevant; and spending time with important people never feels like wasting time as I am happy. - I miss hanging out with friends at nights to drink and chill. - I miss singing with the choir and crew; harmonies we build and enjoying the presence of the people i am with -I miss the sea; diving is so much easier, surfing is another thing as well -Not having to worry about finding a house or doing what you want in the place you